Inside My Thinking Brain

                                  

Define a thinker.

In my case, it’s one thing that describe me well. I am not really the one who could make decision in an instant. I see the problem in front of me, going back and forth through the choices, and still, cannot snap  the decision. Too many what-ifs run through my mind.

Let’s see on the day when I am looking for a sweater for my winter holiday. I’d go to the most complete mall in the city, going into those interesting shops to look for what caught my eyes. When I saw one, I would hold it for a while in front of the big mirror, took a photo of it, spending some time at the fitting room and went out that store empty handed. Yes, I would not buy it until I checked out another store. At the end of the day if I did not find a better one than the previous thing I was interested in, I would buy that previous one! In attempt of finding the best thing, huh?

Theoretically, maybe it’s good. You have to be careful to take the decision in order to get the best result, right? Honestly, no. It’s killing me to find the best of those things with my own way. I envy those people who are spontaneous in things, without having any headache to decide what to do. If they like it, they buy it. Oh I wish I was them.

You might be thinking, it’s not difficult to change. Why don’t I being a spontaneous one and just pick all the things I want? It’s easy, right? Well, it’s easy if the decision is picking those clothes. The thing is, my thinker brain work worst when I have to decide something important. Like now, where do I go to work? My brain keep making all those possibilities and I end up going nowhere, except my brain. I remember the day when I decided to take medical school, or the day when I entered on of the best high school in my country and I did not even know back then. Best things happened when I did not plan any of it. As much as I want to have that superpower right now, I just can’t. This brain is just thinking too much, not working very well.

Yes, for those non-thinker brain out there, I want your super-power.